So I have been pushing myself to go outside my comfort zone and talk to new people but it is so hard to not only engage in a conversation but also express myself in a foreign language. I find myself being so much more shy then I want to be just because I don't have to words or knowledge to say the things I would normally say. My words dumb me down and I feel like a child even when I do speak. Also it takes a lot of confidence to try and speak the few words that I think I might know but I am sure I will pronounce wrong. Some days I feel fustrated, stupid, and even hopeless but it is when there are those few break throughs and times when I understand what someone is saying and am able to respond that I remember why I am doing this and it feels great! This has been happening more and more frequently so that must mean I am learning... it's just suchhh a long processes and I feel like I still have so to far to go before can more then just understand and respond but actually be fluent enough to truly speak in a way that matches my personality. This goes right along with what we were talking about in class: We learn to receive and interpret language much faster we learn to produce it (which makes perfect sense and I am finding to be extremely true). Recently I understand so much of what people are saying and I even started reading a book in Spanish (The Wizard of Oz), but when I write my paper is full of mistakes and my speaking is hard to understand and very simply put.
Since being here I have such a hunger to learn that I have never experienced (or at least never this strong). I just wish i had more time in the day to study... (I never thought i would say that) I have never enjoyed reading and now I find myself bringing my spanish book with me everywhere just incase I have a minute to read/translate a sentence... but speaking of not having enough time I will have to pick back up on this tomorrow. I'm meeting my Spanish Partner tomorrow morning for breakfast, excited to met her but I've got a lot to do in the morning before meeting her so--- Buenos Noches :)
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